To be a well….
Recently I’ve been praying for God to turn my heart into a wellspring. My desire is for the deep love, deep communion. Jesus said, “if anyone thirsts, let him come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said ‘Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water’.”
Just to be near Him… to be like Him… to know Him. I long to be fully surrendered… though every day the flesh within me revolts back. The Lord gave me a neat vision one day while I prayed about these things… I imagined my heart as a well for Holy Spirit’s living water… I saw in this vision the tool being used to dig the well deeper as TRUST. As TRUST dug into the depths of my heart, deep LOVE began to flow…. Christians often wonder why it is so hard to make an impact in our world… yet Jesus promises that rivers of living water will flow from us and bring life to wherever it reaches. What we fail to understand is that to be a well is to be fully yielded. When we open our hearts to the Father, He begins to lead us on this road to an ever-deepening trust in Him.
What did God do with the Israelites immediately after the miraculous escape from the bondage of Egypt…? He led them to the wilderness… He gave them bread from heaven to sustain them for the day… He guided them into the unknown by a pillar of smoke and fire… and He taught them to be utterly dependent on Him. He showed them how to trust.
I am learning to trust my heavenly Father with everything… and it’s absolutely the most beautiful journey I have ever been on. There is no higher privilege. I feel as though my eyes have been opened to a new world. In this deep trust, I can see His deep love for me… I am moved in the little ways He provides for me… In this place, I am truly free.
And as He breaks ground within my heart… God loves to unearth large rocks that keep Him from moving deeper… These rocks are more commonly known as fears.
Fear, in its truest form, withholds us from the deeper things of God… But so often, when the challenge to trust digs at the mire of our hearts, we shrink back and harden, forgetting the One who brings us to that place. I have discovered that choosing to trust and worship God despite the uncertainty and within the trial is truly our greatest honor as His children. He is always worthy of our trust, always worthy of our praise. When I remember His character… when I remember Jesus on the cross… when I remember the whispers of Holy Spirit that have pierced to the depths of my soul… I am certain there nothing to hold back from Him, nothing to fear. In that instant, another stone in my heart is unearthed. Deep love springs forth and my heart overflows…love becomes second nature. I am aware of His heart once again.
Thank you, my God, for demanding nothing less than all of me. There is nothing like being open, vulnerable, known before You. There is absolutely nothing like it.
John 7:37-39, Hosea 2:14-15